I want an angel to sweep down...

If only my life could be more like the movies.

I want an angel to sweep down to me like it does to

Jimmy Stewart in it's a wonderful life and talk me out of suicide.

I've always waited for that one moment of truth

to set me free and change my life forever...

but he wont come,it doesnt happen that way.

All the drugs,all the therapy,fights,anger,guilt,rave,

suicidal thoughts,all of thta was part of some slow recovery process,

the same way i went down i came back up,gradually... and then suddenly.

The pills werent the cure at all,

God knows,but they gave me breathing space

which allowed me to start writing again only this time

it was not as if my life deppended on it