All I want is blackness...blackness and silence.

Sometimes I feel like I am not… Solid. 
I'm hollow. There’s… Nothing behind my eyes.
 I'm a negative of a person. 
It's as if I never... I never thought anything. 
I never wrote... anything, I never felt anything. 
All I want is blackness... 
blackness and silence. 
Look, one thing I do know about death.. 
is it is not a...a reunion or a homecoming. 
There's... there is no your life doesn't flash 
before you and the missing pieces of you dont click into place. 
Its just…. there's fuck all. 
There is nothing. 
So what do you do when your life... gets as bad it can. 
And just keeps getting worse